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Random Friday

It’s Friday!!!! This has been both a long week & flew by at the same time. Anyone else feel that way? I’m super excited for this weekend! FF & I are going to the Drive In tonight (our 3rd time this summer – yippee!) to see Inception. I’m prepared to have my mind blown – I hope I’m not let down! Tomorrow we have a wedding of some friends FF met while living in North Carolina (who are originally from here & getting married here. Although I wish we were going to NC so I could meet some of my lovely blog heroes like Beth Anne & Jenny. Maybe in April?). JD gets baptized on Sunday so we’ll have a little celebratory BBQ after church where I’ll get to see some friends & family I haven’t seen in a while. A busy weekend but it should be a lot of fun!

I’ve still been having a lot of problems with my diabetes this week. I’m disappointed to say that I will NOT be running a 5K in two weeks as planned. My feet are just not cooperating right now. So I plan on continuing to train & taking my diuretic and hopefully will be able to run one towards the end of September. I won’t lie, I’m VERY disappointed but I know my health & the safety of my appendages needs to come first. I’m not giving up yet though! My sugars have been running high & I’m asymptomatic so after a week I’m thinking it’s not an upcoming  infection. I’ll probably tweak my basals a bit over the next few days to try to iron things out (running in the 200s will NOT lower my A1C – must remember that), although my fasting blood glucose this morning was 123 (woot! It’s been over 200 for days now). Quitting smoking? Not going so well. I’ve been in control of my own packs of cigarettes & my impulse control really sucks. FF is going to back to rationing them for me this weekend. I hope that helps!

So now that you’re updated, I present to you my favorite things from the interwebs this week:

Jacquie over at Typical Type 1 wrote a post this week that really struck a chord with me. It’s a modern day fairy tale of sorts about diabetes and all about a bunch of people I am proud to consider friends & confidantes – the DOC. Even if you don’t have diabetes (ESPECIALLY if you don’t have diabetes) this is a MUST READ. What are you waiting for?! Read it here.

This video at Funny or Die is for every skanky girl out there who thinks it’s hot to stand on stage and let some dirty guy grind all over your shit. This video should teach you a lesson. And if you’re not a skanky girl but need a good laugh anyway? You should check out the video too.

In case I’ve never told you (or you weren’t paying attention), I was a cheerleader in high school. All four years. Captain my senior year (til my mother made me quit because I was a naughty girl – that’s a WHOLE other post…maybe). It always pissed me off when people said that cheerleading wasn’t a sport. We throw people in the air and do hours of stair climbing and hundreds of crunches and sometimes 6 hour practices. Screw everyone that said it’s not a sport because it is! Ok, off my soapbox – sorry about that. Really the point to this story is that this cheerleader from Oklahoma City tackled a criminal at the mall & held him til police could arrest him. If she wasn’t in good shape could she do that? I don’t think so!

Ok females, hold on to your utes for this one. I’d been seeing tweets about this blog for a few days so I finally checked it out. It’s called Mila’s Daydreams and oh.em.gee! Words can’t describe the cuteness so just go check it out!

Lastly, Wednesday night we had one of the most beautiful sunsets I’ve seen in a while. It was misting (not quite raining – but almost) and the storm moved in as the sun went down making the sky this crazy lovely orange color. The local newspaper tweeted this picture. Now you all know why I love living in Vermont! It’s beautiful like this ALL. THE. TIME. Just wait til I start posting foliage pics 🙂

Well, that’s it for today. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend! XO


Old Navy Camis

Hey all! I got this fabulous coupon in my e-mail from a friend this morning. I thought I would pass it on to all of you!$2camis_coupon.jpg

P.S. – You are welcome! If you feel so inclined, I do accept gifts & will send you my address 🙂

Duck Fiabetes

This is my favorite phrase. I found it at LOL Diabetes a few months ago. I have it hanging at my desk AND on my fridge at home. I often times use it in a hashtag on Twitter. In case you don’t know what this means or don’t get the joke – switch the first letter of each word and what do you get? Yeah, now you know!

With high sugars, nausea, headaches & big, fat swollen feet this is EXACTLY how I feel about my current situation. I need to figure out a way to get out of this funk. Any suggestions? XO

Wordless Wednesday

Bman reading to JD. Priceless!!!!

The End of An Era?

I’ve been wrestling with some very personal feelings over the past week or so and I wasn’t sure I wanted to write about it. After a long talk with FF in the car on Sunday, I am realizing writing is probably the only therapy that will work at this point. And this is my blog so I can do what i want 🙂

A few weeks ago on a Sunday morning, I awoke at 4am after a disturbing dream (I’ve been having A LOT of these lately). I can’t remember all the details now but I can tell you I had this overwhelming desire to call Mamacita and check on her. I refrained of course due to the late (early?) hour but planned on making contact later in the day. Since this was a Sunday, FF & I planned on spending the day in bed watching movies. Just as we started the movie, I had a voicemail from Mamacita. She sounded upset & asked that I give her a call. So I did.

When she answered I immediately told her about the dream. She informed me it was quite funny that I was having a dream about her & her (female) friend Jose at that time because she was just being released from jail into Jose’s custody at 4am. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?! ZOMG!!!!! What the hell happened? Apparently Mamacita was arrested around 1am for Driving While Intoxicated (DWI). Groan. I was scared, sad & disappointed. She asked if I could come and get her so she could get her car out of the impound lot. I asked if she could wait a few hours or if she needed to do it now. She said she could wait. So FF & I watched Valentine’s Day (sooooo good! I know it got panned but we loved it. We watched it twice!) and then hit the farmer’s market on our way to pick up Mamacita.

When she got in the car, she didn’t say much. I didn’t probe for info either. When I’m upset, let me be. If I want to talk about it, I will. if not? Well, let’s just say it’s not pretty if you try to make me talk about something I don’t want to discuss. So I left the ball in her court. Anyway, we took her to her car and she said she was all set. She’d spoken very little on the car ride & I just listened. I didn’t have any advice or any sympathy. She’s my best friend and I was doing what I hope she would have done for me had the situation been reversed (God forbid!).

We don’t normally talk much during the summer because she has a group of friends who own boats and she spends a lot of time with them when the weather is nice (not that I blame her!). I didn’t reach out to her. I didn’t have anything to say. “How are you?” Well, my guess is she’s pretty shitty since she’s about to lose her license & having to pay a bazillion dollars in fines. So I didn’t ask. My general rule is, if you need me, you know where to find me. This is how I hope my friends treat me & also how I treat my friends. We are adults & don’t need to be babied. Cruel? Maybe. However, I’m a pretty sensitive person & I tend to take on other’s problems and issues so I adapted this mentality to be able to get through my life without being eaten alive by drama.

Anyway, we exchanged a few texts about “Eat, Pray, Love” because she had just finished it. I texted her the next night suggesting we make plans to go see the movie. I didn’t hear back from her. I waited two days. I sent another text, “Long time no chat. how are things?” Nada. I sent an e-mail. Then a voicemail. Then a Facebook wall post. Everything I sent was never acknowledged or responded to. I was pretty taken aback…and upset. This is my best friend and she won’t talk to me?! What did I do that was so terrible. In the voicemail I left I even said, “I don’t know if I did something to upset you but I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt your feelings and I’m sorry if I did.” There was nothing else to do…

On Friday, FF & I were making dinner & having a few cocktails at home. I heard my phone alert me to a text and without even looking at it I said, “That’s Mamacita.” Turns out I was right (apparently I have some ESP? First the dream & now this?!) She asked if we were out. I replied to let her know that we were staying in for the evening as we had a long weekend ahead of us. In response I got, “Last weekend I get to drink for 18 months. have fun at home.” Ummm, ok. Bitchiness not necessary. I asked FF to read it to make sure I wasn’t just compounding my anger about her lack of response all week. He agreed that the text was a little mean. I wrote back & explained that because she didn’t get in contact with me I had no idea she would be out on Friday. I haven’t heard from her since.

I’m really hurt and more than a little pissed about the situation. My intention was not to be a bad friend and I don’t feel that I have been. In speaking with a mutual friend last night apparently she is upset that it took me so long to come and get her to bring her to her car (I could have said no!) and that I didn’t respond to a text one night (because I don’t have summers off and tend to be asleep around 10pm). I’ve had it! She’s in court this morning & I so very much want to reach out, wish her good luck and offer her a shoulder. But I’m not going to do it. I’m sorry she got herself in this situation but I will not work this hard to make a friendship work. As with any relationship – a friendship is a lot of work. But it doesn’t mean you should have to do more than 50% of the work to make everything ok. If she wants to maintain a friendship, she can come to me & we won’t be brushing this under the rug. We will discuss this – at great length. This attitude? Doesn’t fly with me. I’ve chosen to live my life as drama free as possible and if that’s all you can bring to the table? There are no seats left for you.

Phew! So glad to get that off my chest. Thanks for reading XO

Random Friday

Thank God it’s FINALLY Friday! I have to admit though, this week absolutely flew by. I have a busy weekend ahead of course, weekends ALWAYS fly by far too fast! First of all, let’s update you on the progress of my D-goals:

Lancet: I’m still sucking at changing this twice a week. I changed it last night & I think that may have been the first time I changed it since I wrote these goals. FAIL

CGM: Paperwork complete! Sent to CDE! Being processed! SUCCESS

Exercise: Gym 5 days for lifting and because of a little hiccup (read: tired) last week we had to run FOUR days this week for the Couch to 5K program. Last night was a 20 minute jog! It was tough but I made it through with only one short (45 seconds) walking break. I’m feeling REALLY good about my body right now SUCCESS

Diet: I’ll admit, this week I was really tight on funds so I did awesome with my diet! Snacks were few & far between but healthy like apples & peanut butter – yum! SUCCESS

Smoking: I’m still down to only 6 cigarettes a day. Next week I step down to five. Hold me? SUCCESS

A1C: I’ve been having A LOT of unexplained high BGs this week and they’re making BIG jumps. My 7 day average on my meter? 219. Yikes. So either something is brewing or I really need to do those basal assessments. I don’t really like either option. FAIL

Also, an update on my feet. I’ve still had some swelling. Wednesday night after three nights in a row of running I was quite swollen and in pain (all the way to my calves) I’m taking Lasix to bring down the swelling and my Echocardiogram is scheduled for Monday morning. You can count on me to keep you posted! But now, the best things I found on the internet this week:

This DJ is super excited about his job. if this video doesn’t make you snort with laughter, I’m not sure we can be friends.

Adrienne over at No Points For Style posted about how different the world would be if Mental Illness was seen in the same light as cancer. Her words and ideas blew me away and I am STILL trying to find the words to tell her how in awe I am. Read it for yourself here

I’ve always been interested in all things Holocaust related (I know that sounds morbid – but it’s not – I swear!) I’ve spent years trying to figure out how someone that evil could be brought to power and how thousands and thousand of people could kill millions of other people just because of their religion. Makes no sense to me. Anyway, I saw this headline and I was intrigued: Former Inmate Recalls Daring Escape From Auschwitz. It’s a tearjerker and I can’t guarantee the ending will make you happy but it’s riveting none the less.

Something I wasn’t sure about sharing is the fact that The Pioneer Woman is cleaning out her closet & giving away things she doesn’t want anymore! Can you believe it?! She’s already given away 6 items and will continue posting. If you win something from her & heard about this from me? We are officially fighting!

Don’t forget that Gregg over at The Lame Sauce is doing the LIVESTRONG Challenge – a 100 mile bike ride (you go Gregg!). He’s looking for donations and there’s a perk! For every $5 you donate to kicking cancer’s ass? You are entered in a drawing to win a 12×24 original painting! Swoon!!!! If you haven’t seen his work – check out Modern Bird Studios. So go over and shower him with donations – it’s for a wonderful cause!

Lastly, my birthday is coming up (less than 2 months – that’s close right? Right?!). I love my birthday! This is a big one too – the big ~gasp~ 3-0! There are some things I really want for my birthday this year so I took the guess work out of it for anyone that will actually buy me gifts (go ahead & ask – I’ll give you my address 🙂 ) and started an online wishlist at Kaboodle. It’s been fun doing some virtual window shopping! On that note, I will be posting some goals/bucket list kind of things in the days & weeks leading up to my big day (September 15th. You won’t forget – trust me, I won’t let you!). I’d also really like to do some giveaways so if you’re interested or know anyone that would like to help me do a giveaway, please let me know. You know how to find me 😉

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! XO

D Feast Friday – Low Carb & High Protein

I heard about this wonderful idea from Karen & Lorraine. I’ve been very much enjoying the Momma’s Munchies I’ve been doing with Lindsey & I feel like this is a great opportunity to connect on that same level with the DOC. My recipe for today is something that’s evolved over time. It was the first thing I ever made for FF (who in case you didn’t know – also stays away from those evil carbs!). We were headed out on a road trip to NH (so I could meet his family for the first time – yikes!) I had made some mini cheesecakes for the party but I knew we would need breakfast too. So I found a quick & easy recipe for a quiche. I made it and we ate it and it was…ok. It definitely had potential but needed some work. A few weeks later I suggested it again and he asked, “Do you think you can make it without a crust?” HA! I’ll make it without a crust – sure! While I’m at it? I’m switching the eggs to just egg whites. Let’s make this thing healthy & delicious! Well, second time around and we were goners. We have this quiche at least once a month and it’s a hit whenever we bring it to brunch parties or serve it to out of town guests. I should warn you however, I don’t use a lot of measuring devices. I work more in handfuls & pinches. So without further ado…

Choose Your Own Adventure Quiche

Egg Whites (I use the kind in a carton – soooo much easier. We rarely have “real” eggs in the house. My guess at how much? 1/2 cup? 3/4 cup?)

12oz (or so) of meat of your choice (we love using breakfast sausage – one regular package. We’ve also tried it with bacon. Both are delicious!)

8oz (or so)of veggies of your choice (we use mushrooms. We’ve also tried spinach and peppers. Again, totally interchangeable based on your tastes)

Shredded Cheese (I use a handful. Use whatever you’d like – Mozzarella, Taco Blend – it all works!)

Milk – just need a little bit. The original recipe called for half & half. I tried it with the light stuff & it was fine. Now I just use my low carb milk – feel free to use whatever you would like)

Spices (again, base this on your tastes. We use Cayenne pepper – but just a little because spice & I are NOT friends!)

I’m going to write the directions for how I cook using sausage & mushrooms. I know you’ll all be able to make the substitutions for yourself where necessary

Preheat the oven to 350°

Brown sausage & mushrooms (I usually sprinkle a little Cayenne on them while cooking)

While meat & veggies are cooking I mix the milk, egg whites, cheese & a bit more Cayenne (sounds like a lot but it’s not – remember, I don’t like heat)

Once the meat & veggies are cooked I pour them into a greased (I use Pam cooking spray) 9″ pie plate. I pour the egg mixture on top (this is how to tell if you have enough eggs – it should just barely cover the meat & veggie mixture)

Bake at 350° for about half an hour. You’ll know when it’s done – the eggs will be fluffy and firm

Slice & enjoy!

I don’t have the nutritional info for this as it’s something I adapted to suit my dietary needs (hell, I can’t even tell you how much eggs to use or how long to cook it!). I can tell you the way I make it, it’s low in carbs & calories and high in protein and good fats. It’s also delicious & soooo versatile. We’ve done a bacon & spinach quiche (I used the ranch dressing powder packets for my spice) and a veggie one (mushrooms, peppers, spinach etc. with sesame oil as the “spice”). It’s always well received and I like it because I can make it ahead of time & just reheat it in the over (or take leftovers to work!) I hope you all enjoy this recipe as much as FF & I do! XO


Thankful on a Thursday

My weekly shout out to Nish at The Outdoor Wife! Thanks again for this brilliant idea!

27.) I’m thankful for sore muscles. I don’t enjoy it but as they say, “No pain, no gain.”

28.) I’m thankful for all the support I’ve received on Twitter (Karen, Miranda, Abigail & John especially!) for Couch to 5k. Tonight will be my first 20 minute jog. I’m scared but I’m going to try my best – that’s all I can do right?!

29.) I’m thankful for the cooler temperatures that have found their way to this area. I don’t do well with heat. Now it feels like summer – not an oven!

30.) I’m thankful for birthday parties, wedding planning (other people’s!), children (again, other people’s!), quiet nights at home, phone dates & long lost friends.

31.) I’m thankful that many people I have met through Twitter & this blog are people I consider friends. You can say anything at any time on Twitter and no one judges you for it. It’s a great outlet!

32.) I’m thankful for laptops so I can sit in my living room and tweet & blog and watch a very funny episode of SNL (Joseph Gordon-Levitt is the host. PS – Thank you DVR!)

What are YOU thankful for today? XO

Marriage – what’s the point?

I was listening to my favorite radio station this morning on my way to work and they had a listener who called in with what I feel was a great question. She’s been with her boyfriend for 5 years and is beginning to feel a lot of pressure from her mother to get married. The problem? She doesn’t want to get married. She feels like she has everything she needs & wants right now and would rather not have to worry about getting divorced. So the DJs got to talking and trying to figure out the advantages to being married. There’s the obvious legal factors such as life insurance, health insurance etc. But what are the emotional benefits to getting married? That’s a great question.

I’ve been married. I did it because it was the next logical step in my 7+ year relationship. I did it because I had always dreamed of being that beautiful bride walking down the aisle and smooshing cake in my groom’s face (there was no smooshing actually – I wish now there was though!). I did it because it’s where my life was meant to take me. I did it without reservations. I did it without fear of divorce. I did it without even considering the legal & financial benefits.

So why do people get married? Is it because of tradition? This is totally taking over my mind right now! I will say, I want to get married again. I have no fears about divorce even though it’s happened to me before. In fact, I have no doubts about marrying FF. I would do it tomorrow (hell, I’d have done it yesterday if he would have asked!). And not just because I want another wedding but because I want God & the world to know I give myself completely to this man. I give myself to him knowing I can trust him and that together we feel as if we can take on the world. I give myself to him because I am committed to loving him forever. Through the good and the bad, the happy & the sad and all the millions of feelings in between. I know how much work a relationship AND a marriage take and I have ALWAYS been willing to put forth that effort. That is even more true now than ever as I have seen how that hard work pays off.

So, what advice would you give to that radio caller? What are the reasons for getting married? What are the reasons for just staying in a committed relationship that is not legally binding? What are the drawbacks to either of these things? There is no right or wrong answer, it’s a truth everyone must find for themselves. I’m just very curious to know your opinions 🙂 XO

Wordless Wednesday

I had such a fabulous weekend I had to share two pictures this week. I didn’t think you’d mind XO

A DOUBLE rainbow came out while FF & I were at the Vermont Brewer's Festival. Sign? 😉

I was in the room the day this sweet girl was born...and I was there this weekend for her 3rd birthday party. Where does the time go?