You Can Call Me Saucy


More about me


Well, thanks for coming back 🙂 I suppose now I could tell you a bit more about where I’m at in my life right now. Today is my half birthday and it marks the last six months of my 20s. GASP! I won’t lie, my 25th birthday was incredibly hard so I’d been dreading 30. Now that everyone around me is doing it though, I’m actually looking forward to a new decade. I’m in a really great place in my life right now and things are fabulous!

I work for a company that produces beauty products (mainly lip balms and glosses) for some BIG named companies. I work in an administrative position and have been here for two years. I probably won’t talk too much about my job as I’ve seen bad things happen to good people because of it. I also have a second job at a sports bar/bowling alley where I’m a Jill of all Trades (thanks for the nickname P!). On any given night I will be serving, bartending or cocktail serving on the lanes. I’ve been in the food/service industry for 13 years and I love it. I couldn’t do it as my full time gig but after sitting in front of a computer for 40+ hours a week, it’s nice to mingle with the people. And the tips are great!

I married my “high school sweetheart” at 24 years old after being together for 7 years and we were divorced shortly after my 27th birthday. It all sucked (a lot!) and I try to keep it behind me but I am thankful for the experience because I learned so much about myself and life in general. I had one serious relationship after my divorce that got hot and heavy far too quickly and crashed and burned much the same way. Then I met FF (my nickname for my fabulous boyfriend – it stands for “Favorite Friend”) and everything changed. This boy is hot like fire, sweet like candy and patient as all get out. I think we both knew early on that there was potential for greatness but he kept his distance and insisted I learn how to stand on my own two feet before he would begin a relationship. Here we are now, a year and a half later, happy as can be and I love him (and myself!) so much more than I ever thought possible.

I have diabetes. I was diagnosed almost 3 years ago. I have no family history and none of the stereotypical risk factors so it was a big shock. I take shots every day – and it sucks. I was on an insulin pump for about a year but just recently discontinued that method of treatment (for several reasons). I fight with this diagnosis all the time. It makes me angry, depressed, proud and frustrated all at the same time. Thanks to another favorite blogger who coined the term “badassness” (thanks Jen!) for people with diabetes who have to inject themselves every day, I’m trying to keep a positive outlook on things. This blog will probably discuss my health quite a bit as it has to be something I am aware of all.the.time.

I love my family. All of them. My parents have been married for over 30 years and I admire their relationship. I have a younger sister that I am immensely jealous proud of for having a career, a successful marriage and two of the cutest boys on the face of the planet. My nephew Bman is two years old and full of piss & vinegar (as Gramps would say). He looks like Sis but has his dad’s temper. He should be a child model – and I’m not just saying that because he’s my nephew (well, maybe a little!). He’s super smart too. JD is almost 4 months old and looks like his dad spit him out! He’s extremely mellow and smiley and I love him to pieces! My parents come from big families (mom is one of 6 and dad one of 9!) and we all lived within about 2 hours of each other at most (on both sides!) but as I grew up everyone kind of grew apart (geographically at least). Now, thanks to the wonders of Facebook (have I mentioned my love of Facebook?!) many of us are back in touch and I love that!

I love sports! I’d have to say college basketball is a big favorite for me. Basketball in general is great. It started in the 6th grade when my best friend KVK decided that when we got to high school that she would play basketball and I would be a cheerleader. It happened! Her dad was the high school coach and my dad and I would go to games all the time just to watch. By the time I got to high school, I knew more about basketball than a lot of my guy friends. Some of my favorite memories involve my dad, myself and basketball. We camped out for tickets to the America East Championship 6 years ago and it was a blast! We missed it this year because of money and me having to work (go Cats!!!!) but basketball and my dad will always go hand in hand. I also love baseball (Go Redsox!), Nascar (Go Junior!), hockey (Fight! Fight!) and I’m developing a love for the NFL thanks to FF (he roots for the Pats but I’m thinking about becoming a Ravens fan…just because).

Well, I think that sums everything up for now. It’s hard doing all this talking about myself but I think it necessary so when I start writing my every day stuff you have some sort of background on me to understand it. For my next entry (or at some point in the near future) I’m going to copy another blogger friend’s idea (Lauren, is that ok if I call you my blogger friend?) and make a list of a certain number of things I would like to do in a certain amount of time. I think that’s also a great way to get to know people. That way you’ll know where I’ve been as well as where I’d like my life to go. I also have several other blog ideas such as how I met FF, the day I was diagnosed with diabetes and more about my marriage. That should work as good filler material til I get the hang of this 🙂 Well, until next time! XO

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Amazing!


So my heart has been warmed with sweet comments from some of my favorite people that I don’t even know (in real life – but I feel like I do)! Thank you so much Blair, Jen and Erin – you guys are wonderful and I enjoy your blogs oh so much! It’s funny because I’m currently wrestling with how public or anonymous I want to keep this blog. I was thinking last night about discussing it with the boyfriend (whom I call FF – to be explained in a later post) but he even thinks Twitter is stupid and oversharing so it was something I wasn’t sure about. And then we watched the episode of House we taped Monday night (three cheers for DVR!).

 Laura Prepon guest starred and a HUGE part of who she was revolved around her blog. She was asking her readers for their opinions on her medical options (plastic heart valve or one from a pig?). She talked about how she loved the internet because you could find people just like yourself and make a connection. She also discussed how it was easier than having a relationship because she always knew what her readers were thinking. Now, she was in a relationship and she complained to her boyfriend that she felt like she never knew what he was thinking and she wishes he had a blog. That’s when FF looked at me and said, “I don’t feel that way. I always tell you what I’m thinking and I don’t hold anything back.” It was all I could do to keep my jaw from hitting the floor. He’s right – we are both so amazingly honest with each other (he will tell me if an outfit makes me look “less than perfect” and I love him for it!).

So why do I feel this need to blog? I guess I agree with the character and I do feel like I’ve made a connection with people over the internets. I like the feeling of people listening to me and what I have to say and taking it at face value because they don’t actually know me. I can say WHATEVER I WANT and it’s safe. Yes, I’ve read enough blogs to know that readers aren’t always kind. And I know whatever I say to FF is always safe (he’s even told me he loves be not just despite my craziness, but even because of it – swoon!) I suppose sometimes I want to think someone can actually trace my train of thought and totally get it.

I don’t wanna become that person who blogs at every corner. I don’t think you wanna hear about how many times a day I go to the bathroom. My medical decisions are mine and I would trust my doctor and myself with those things. I might discuss them here from time to time but I’m not going to post a poll asking people what they think I should do. I guess it just comes down to how much I love where my life is at and I want to share that with people. I want others to do know that even in the depths of despair, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and things will get better – I’ve been there, I know (a diabetes diagnosis one day, husband leaving you the next, finding out lil sis is prego the day after that = big time suckfest). I want to share the amazing things FF does and says. I want to share how adorably cute my nephews are (Bman was singing “Ole Ole” in the tub last night and splashing around – oh to be two years old again!). I want to share my ideas about wedding planning and coordinating any kind of social function (I’m currently planning a goddess swap and a book club – to be discussed more later as well! Is this teasing working – will you keep coming back?). I want to discuss books, food, movies and music. I want input on those same things. So I think for now, I’m going to keep this blog up and be honest but I think I’ll stay your Saucy Redhead for now and everyone else in my life will retain some anonymity too (which they deserve). So I’ll keep writing and we’ll see where things go. Thanks for reading XO


Here we go!


So I’m going to take some advice from one of my favorite bloggers and “start small and conservative.” In my experience, in order for a blog to catch (and keep) my attention, I have to feel a connection to the author. Whether its pictures on their pages or their humor/sincerity/honesty/sarcasm. Something has to grab me. And I have to feel like this is someone I would want to meet in real life (are you reading Blair, Jen, Lauren, Erin and Catherinette?) So my first thought (and I’m trying to learn to always go with my first instinct!) is to post the info from the “About Me” section on my Facebook (oh how I worship FB!). So take a gander, mull it over and if you wanna start reading on a regular basis? Great. I will try to post often as there are a lot of crazy things going on in this brain! I vow to keep you as entertained and up to date as possible. So here’s how I sum up this Saucy Redhead:

I am one of the most fun, outgoing people you will ever meet. I am sensitive, kind and easily trust people I shouldn’t. I fall fast and hard and I bruise easily – physically & emotionally. I live with a chronic illness every day and know that no matter how hard I try to keep myself healthy, my body is always working against me. I love to sing and dance and cook and read. I love to give to others. There is nothing I wouldn’t do or give up for the people in this world that I love – and there are a lot of them. I have trouble with the word no. I don’t see myself as having made mistakes but rather gained wisdom from my bad decisions. Regret gets you nowhere but sometimes it’s hard to let go of the past. I always see the good in a person or situation – even if it’s inappropriate or unwarranted. I am chatty and someday my children will call me Kramer – like I call my dad. I’m always looking to meet new people and gain new insights into life. I have an impetuous streak when I am crossed. My angry side is something you don’t want to encounter. I eat like a pig, burp like a man, swear like a sailor and cry like a baby. I love hockey, UVM hoops, NASCAR & baseball. I’ve been married and divorced. I’ve been in love and I’ve been heartbroken. I have a nephew and Godson who means more to me than even he will ever know. The Red Sox rule! I love eating dinner with my family while watching Jeopardy. I love the summer because I can sit outside and drink a beer and smoke a cigarette at the same time. I sing and dance to songs in my head. I love lazy Sundays. I am intelligent but learned in high school that smart wasn’t cool. I graduated with honors anyway and made Dean’s List in college…someday I will go back and graduate. I want to plan weddings or report the news – but only good news that makes people smile. Boston is my favorite city and someday, I might move there. I have six screws in my jaw and that’s why I call it my “million dollar smile.” I’m terrible with money but rarely go without. Green is my favorite color. More people call me by a nickname than by my real name. I love karaoke but hate being the center of attention. I love the idea of love and the white picket fence, 2.3 kids and a dog but learned years ago that’s a fantasy, not a reality. I have four tattoos and plans for at least three more. I want a few more piercings too. I believe in karma although I have yet to see it at work. My favorite vacation spot is Maine where it’s not too hot and you can play in the ocean all day. I am completely random. I have a tendency to overthink the smallest details. When I get in a funk, I make big changes with my hair or buy cute underwear. I love romance but only when mixed with the right amount of sarcasm. I’m proud of my heritage, my skin color, my freckles and my haircolor (which is not what you think it is…)

So there you have it! That’s me in a nutshell. I can’t tell you what else to expect from me. It could be anything from my daily struggles with diabetes, to my love of food, social networking, my nephews and my superhot boyfriend! I’m random but I love to write so stay tuned! Also, I’m very new to this so any advice (from what to write about to how to make my blog beautiful) would be greatly appreciated! XO